August 2018 Update
The August teacher feelings are really started to creep around the edges of mind. One perpetual Sunday feeling sets in. Don't roll your...


It feels like a miracle
My dad and I took a very special trip. Just him and I to see Grant. My dad hadn't seen Grant since Oct 11, 2017. I hadn't seen him since...
A Promise
I can tell it's a Saturday morning because Scott sleeps in and I can carve out a tiny chunk of time to catch up my friends and family...


Coming home
Now Grant's discharge date is May 16. It is still not set in stone. He has had many discharge dates and this one seems the most likely....


Spring break
This has been a very hard return to my Minnesota life. I have spent my free time sleeping and crying. I feel the fog is lifting as I have...
Time doesn't make it easier
I have been dragging my feet on posting. I don't want to blog at this time. I have tried a few times when I have thought of something to...


Can we explain this?
I have wanted answers to Grant's severe behaviors for so long. You would think in 2016 when a Grant's psychiatrist proposed catatonia as...


An empty house - Nov Update
I haven't been writing because reflecting on this experience while going through it is not what I needed. I can't speak for Scott. I can...


I miss you so much
Dear Grant, I love this photo of us. I love your smile and when life is easy. I love your glasses and your curly hair. I love you. And I...


Going to Baltimore
The ambulance showed up about an hour late. I had concerns, but they weren't important because I knew I wasn't in charge of getting us...